Truth Hurts

Truth is really difficult to accept when it's someone elses' truth.

You find yourself somewhat confused and quite aggravated to discover what you thought was reality may not have been real after all.

I'm thinking of the times I've skipped merrily along thinking everything was cool. At the time I was probably even gloating about just how cool everything was. I had my thoughts figured out, my faith figured out, and even my relationships were neatly arranged in a perfect order.

How painful it is when I'm stopped short by a truth encounter I never expected.
And I feel that kind of pain now.

Some of my pain is grief because a friend of mine 'quit' me today. I feel sick and a little lost, trying to remember or figure out what I did wrong and what signals I'd missed over time.

Another element of pain is self-blame that I could be so clueless about someone else's feelings. I mean, I WORK with emotions for a LIVING. How could I have been so unaware of my own friends' feelings?

I'm fighting the old memories of another friendship that ended abruptly and badly.
All the fears, recriminations and rejections are right here in front of me.

But I know I have to be strong in order to hear the truth and learn from it.

Truth isn't always happyland.

So I'm spending the next little bit seeking God's truth and how it applies to me.

Hopefully I'll be able to accept the truth about myself and the difference between HAVING a friend and BEING a friend.

Observations

I've been talking with lots of parents these last few days who have the same concerns about their skills:

Are they too lenient?
Are they taking the right steps?
Will their children survive their childhoods?
Will they survive their children's adulthoods?

I'm on a fact-gathering mission at this time and it seems that most of us are in the same dilemma: Having peace that the decisions we have made or are presently making are the BEST for the future of our families.

Have hope, fellow parents!

Take each day as it comes. Be strong in your boundaries and in your own choices to benefit your legacy.

In the meantime...

Please notice that it's summer. Like, it's a good thing. Like, man, chill out.

Have a nice cool drink. Turn on the baseball game. Grill some grilly thingies.

Relax.

By the way, I will continue to do my research. And have some grilly things.

I will update soon.